Category: Rant

It’s not easy

July 13, 2015

It’s not easy. its-not-gonna-be-easy-107791-480-436_large

Fat loss.

Muscle gain.

Good attitute.


Food prep.

Solid choices.

It’s not easy.

Anyone that tells you it is easy is either in a minority of people who are blessed in a few different departments, or they are trying to sell you something that is probably a good idea to stay away from.

Here is what I have learned on my journey so far.

#1. Don’t beat your self up when you go off track. Just get back on track ASAP and move forward.

#2. Celebrate the little victories. Just don’t celebrate them with ice cream.

#3. Love yourself every step of the way, Just because your “end goal” might be vastly different than where you are today, it doesn’t mean that you aren’t pretty fabulous today. Enjoy the journey.

#4. Understand the “why.” Why do you want this? Dig deep and understand the motivation, it will make the harder days easier and the days off the wagon shorter.

#5. The only person you can compare your journey to is you. This is the really hard part for me. Why does she lose fat faster? Why does she move faster? Why can’t I lift as much even if I work as hard? There is zero point to this line of thought.

#6. Find an expert. I turned to the team at Aspire Health and Performance. Coach Andrew has the background I need and the aptitude to discover what else I might need. It’s not everyday that a midlife power athlete walks into your gym looking to address very specific goals with a background like mine. It takes a mix of personality and know how that isn’t always easy to find.

#7. LISTEN to your expert. LISTEN MORE when it feels like everything is falling apart and nothing is happening. Step back and LISTEN again when you want to throw in the towel because it feels like the universe is conspiring against you.

20150625_153134#8. Be honest with both yourself and the people working with you. It’s not always easy but that is where the biggest growth will come.

#9. You can do more than you think if you stop telling yourself you can’t.

#10. Sometimes you need to ask the same question over and over and over again. A good coach gets this and will keep answering until you understand the answer so you don’t need to ask again.

So far in my journey the thing I love the most is how I am moving. In everything from wake surfing to walking down stairs my body is responding better. Somedays are harder than others to get my butt in gear but those little victories are starting to add up pretty quickly and motivate me to fight through the tougher days.

I don’t know how to stress this enough. If you are thinking about making a change. DO IT TODAY. Find the expert, pay the money, work and push harder than you every have before. Sweat. Cry. Be frustrated. Fight. Kick something. Pout. Growl. Just give everything you have to it. When you are in the gym, give that time the respect you deserve in this journey. That is the time for you to focus on one thing; your body and how it is moving. Start with full commitment within that time frame and before you know it other pieces of your life will start to fall in line as well.

Kudus and thanks to you for even ready this far. 🙂 Feel free to leave a comment or fire me off a message if you want to chat or need a little push.. we are all in this together and I promise I have your back 🙂


Dear friend afraid of failing

April 16, 2015

Dear friend afraid of failing,

First let me say. I love you. You are fierce and strong, determined and beautiful! You have made a choice to do a few thing differently in your life with the final outcome being a happier and healthier you. You know HOW, you just have to start.

You confessed to me that you are afraid to start, because you are afraid that you will fail, again.

I hear you loud and clear! That fear haunts us all in one way or another. This fear impacts all aspects of life but because you have set your sites on eating healthier and sweating more let’s focus on that.

People love to say “feel the fear and do it anyway.” I agree, but sometimes I think what you need to do is “honour” the fear. Acknowledge that your fear is simply a defense mechanism your soul is using to keep you safe.


Take the time to look at the fear, pick it up and shake it! What is it really saying? When you say “fear of failure” do you mean fear that you won’t make your goals, that people won’t support you, that perhaps your goals are not achievable within the time frame you have laid out?

Consider that you are not afraid of failure but afraid to admit, that you are not ready yet to make the changes required to reach your goals.

Once you are clear on what your fear is, it will be easier to tackle.

Know this one simple truth. If you seek help from a professional on how to reach your goal, and you do what the professional says. You will reach your goal. There will be bumps in the road and adjustments to be made, but if you do what you need to, It will work.

Truthful “fear of failure” in this regard is such a broad statement. My biggest fear on my health journey is fear that I won’t value myself long term enough to make the right choices in the short term. I just keep repeating to myself that “it” matters; Why? Because “I” matter.

My friend, that is what you need to remember to beat this fear. YOU matter. Even if you are at a stage of life when you feel like you don’t matter to anyone in your world, there is one person that you matter to always.. YOU. Past, present and future YOU. YOU all matter.

Extra reading.

I’m going head to head with my fears about getting back on track health wise and hitting goals in the powerlifting world at Aspire Health and Performance. If you are looking for an expert to help you I highly encourage you to contact them and find out more. Stop Working Out. Start Training.

Psssst… You also matter to ME. Very much. xx

Functional What?

March 18, 2015

In the wonderful world of trainers you often hear the term “Functional Movement.” It sounds like something we all should understand.  Here is the actual definition:

Functional movements are movements based on real-world situational biomechanics. They usually involve multi-planar, multi-joint movements which place demand on the body’s core musculature and innervation.

Which makes it all a little more confusing. Here is my take on it. Movements that you do everyday that involve all your muscles, joints and other parts under your skin moving properly so you are free to do what needs to get done, everything from doing up your shoes to walking up stairs to sitting at a high top and climbing on to the ridiculously tall chairs.

While my goals are fat loss and powerlifting training, functional movement stuff (stuff being highly technical term) is playing an important role in my training, and I am actually starting to notice!

Training at Aspire Health and Performance has been interesting, especially because for the first time in over 5 years I committed to fat loss being my first priority in training, which has lead to a different training experience. I have never done so many reps, sweat so much, or pushed my limits so hard. After the first 6 weeks of having my butt handed to me here are the results I have noticed:

  • dropped 2 jean sizes
  • face noticeable slimmer
  • bust size is down
  • easier to do anything that involves kneeling down
  • vast improvement in what I hate the most: split squats
  • oddly enough I really like slamming a tire with a sledge hammer and box jumps are my new joy

Meet Trainer Andrew!

I am also slowly starting to appreciate what my body can do, and appreciate that I have a trainer that made sure I had the proper foundation in place to have my limits pushed. Ready to have yours pushed? When you are are, find someone who really knows what they are doing, knowing that someone has your back and will make sure you have everything you need not to get injured will make a world of difference. Obviously I give 2 thumbs up to Andrew LoCurto and the team at Aspire Health and Performance. Perhaps I will see you there 🙂





Sometimes it isn’t pretty

February 26, 2015

I post this picture for everyone that is training and gets annoyed that their sweat isn’t glistening like dew in the morning.

Sometimes, it isn’t pretty.


I have friends that regularly post pictures of themselves working out and somehow they always look fabulous. We don’t often see those beginning pictures, at least not until their is an “after” picture to go with it…  which is another pet peeve you can read about — > HERE.

So to everyone that is at the start of the journey I want you to know that your before picture is beautiful, it highlights all the fabulous things about you. Courage, sense of humour, determination, and zest for life. Truly that is as sexy as it gets. I love that you are doing this!

Someone requested that I include more photo’s and videos in this blog; consider it done! If I can make you more comfortable getting your sweat on then so be it!

P.S. When I feel like people are watching me and I get self conscious, it’s usually a sign that I can train harder… because when I am working full out I have no room to care. Although I do admit I hate it when the shorts ride down and the shirt rides up, but we can’t be perfect all the time!

Thinking about becoming a sweaty mess with the rest of us? Join my adventure at Aspire Health and Performance. Stop Working Out. Start Training.


P.S.S. Welcome to newbies Stefan and Lisa, it great to see you at Aspire! 



Water Your Body!

February 18, 2015

Why is it so difficult to get in the water we should?

One day, someone showed me a glass of water that was half full. And he said, “Is it half full or half empty?” So I drank the water. No more problem.
~ Alexander Jodorowsky

Drink Me

This should be the simplest of any healthy change we make. We often talk about getting your water in to help reduce weight, but athletes listen up: If you dehydrate a muscle only 3% you cause about a 10% loss in contractile strength, and an 8% loss of speed. All because you are not drinking enough water. What an easy fix! Michele at The Green Protein writes a great blog about it.. check it out HERE.

The best tip I have drinking_straws_385x261ever utilized for getting all my water is simply. Embrace my inner 6 year olds love of a straw! It goes down faster and in turn you end up drinking more! This is also a lesson we learned when we first started drinking fancy umbrella drinks..  #worsthangoverever

Buzzfeed put together a list of tips that includes some fun apps that might help.. you can check it out HERE!


Join me as I continue on my journey at Aspire Health and Performance. Stop Working Out. Start Training.



February 11, 2015


We talk about it a lot. I have dug deep the last couple weeks because of the hardest training sessions EVER.

I have pushed hard in the gym before, I can think of a certain Russian program that regularly brought me to my knees.

These days at Aspire Health and Performance I have to use every little thing I learned from that experience to not slide out of the gym on a pile of sweat while no one is looking. First problem with this plan is that Andrew is always looking.


The man has eyes in the back of his head!

I have never sweat as much as I do with my latest training sessions, I am tackling some new moves, muscles and attitudes. I remind myself over and over that I can do this. The two things that help me the most as I hit that wall where everything inside is telling me to stop is:

#1. A reminder that I can do anything for 15 seconds ( I remind myself again when the next 15 seconds arrives)

#2. That I trust my trainer and he wouldn’t have me doing something that I could not do.

I know trust Andrew to push me as hard as I need pushing and that he will be there to pick me up if I need it, or stop me if I push too hard too fast. This free’s up space in my brain to fight off the relentless urge to stop.

I find much of the so called “motivation” online rather un-motivating.  It just feels like superficial phrases set on unrealistic pictures.  The other day I had a horrible picture of myself emceeing an event posted online, someone had the audacity to say to me, “well that should be great motivation to stick to it a the gym.”  Are you KIDDING ME?!? One look at that picture and all I wanted to do was toss in the towel and head for the first fast food drive-thu I could find.

Sanity prevailed and that didn’t happen, but I thought I would share with you some of the motivational things that have helped me.

Off the top, check out the write up on A Navy Seal explaining 8 secrets to grit and resilience. So much of this rang true!




This campaign has been making a splash in the UK. I love all the body shapes and sizes represented, moving and shaking, jumping and diving.. The snap of the bathing suit in the beginning is perfection!

 Just for some added reflection, click HERE for a blog I wrote after reading the words

“motivation is for the weak.”

If you are contemplating some sort of fitness journey, no matter where you are at on the road, I encourage you to find your own motivation and use it whenever needed.. and remember it doesn’t matter how anyone else feels about what works for you.. because it’s for you!

Join me at Aspire Health and Performance. Stop Working Out. Start Training.

Exploding Fishbowls

February 04, 2015

Has your fishbowl ever exploded?

Mine has.

The life of a fish, in a bowl, is pretty simple. Around and around they swim in an environment they are very farmilar with. Do they ever see the world that is just outside? Around and around they go not knowing and often not caring that their paradigm could be shifted at any moment with the collapse of the glass.

A fishbowl explosion is simply when something you held to be true can no longer hold. Your thought pattern and belief system is radically changed, usually for the better.

Michele Helmeczi trained me in Calgary, she is pretty awesome, she often talked about your fishbowl exploding. Michele knew I would be able to back squat over 300lbs (considerable.) She told me this, often and I would smile and nod and be excited and put in the training and never really truly absolutely believe it was going to happen.

Until the day it did. Fishbowl goes #BOOM.   fishbowl

One of the side effects of experiencing an exploding fishbowl is that you become aware that other parts of your soul also live in fishbowls and those fish are very comfortable.

One of my fishbowls is more of an aquarium with two fish. One of those fish doesn’t believe that I will lose the fat I want to and be able to rock the best of Kelowna beach wear, the other fish doesn’t believe I will be able to lift my goals in the smaller weight class.

Understand that big picture I believe, intellectually I get it!  I am putting in the work, I am giving 110% and I am sweating consistently more than I ever have before. Yet, inside that fishbowl that fish is just swimming around and around and around..

Sooner over later that fishbowl is set for detonation.

Once you have identified that you have a fishbowl you take the steps, each step is a tremor and before you know it there is glass and water everywhere.

My fishbowl tremors are starting. So far no cracks in the bowl… but I think it’s getting close.

Take sometime and figure out if you have some fish happily swimming around in a bowl, if you do, decide if it’s time they have a new view!

If that requires some sweat and guidance, join me at Aspire Health and Performance!

Stop Working Out. Start Training.